Title: Fighting for You
Series: Lifesworn, Book Two
Author: Megan Derr
Publisher: NineStar Press
Release Date: April 16, 2018
Heat Level: 3 - Some Sex
Pairing: Male/Male Menage
Length: 35000
Genre: Fantasy, LGBT, fantasy, menage, bisexual, pansexual, royalty
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Synopsis
All Penli wants to be is left alone.
After nearly a decade of blood and violence, and a lifetime of enduring his
cold, ambitious family, it’s almost a relief to be practically alone in the
middle of a desert kingdom with no way to return home because of the warrant
out for his arrest.
The very last thing he needs is to be
consumed by a fit of honor and nobility—but he would much rather die than ever
see the two sweet, intriguing men who cross his path forced apart, one to be
thrown to the streets, the other to marry a malicious bully Penli has despised
for years.
Though he means only to free them, having
no desire to marry after barely escaping one unwanted marriage, with each
passing day Penli fears the only thing more difficult than throwing his life
away will be resisting the urge to build a new one with two men he barely
knows.
Excerpt
Fighting for You
Megan Derr © 2018
All Rights Reserved
Prologue
SIXTEEN YEARS AGO
“Enough.”
Penli huffed and fired one more arrow
anyway—and yowled when the instructor cuffed him, leaving his ears ringing.
“What did I say?” Kure demanded.
“Enough,” Penli grumbled.
“Unstring your bow and clean up. We’re
done for the day.”
Several paces away, Tishasanti the
Bastard opened his mouth to argue, but a look from their archery instructor had
him snapping it shut.
Penli bit back his own complaints, even
though it wasn’t fair that he was making them quit practice before one of them
had one. He’d almost had Tishi-Wishi. One more round and he’d have won!
Grumbling to himself, Penli unstrung his
longbow and set it aside before he went to retrieve all his arrows, shoving
them irritably into the quiver at his hip. When he was done, he retrieved his
bow and headed off across campus to the dormitories on the far side. The air
was chilly, heralding the coming winter, but not yet so cold that he needed
more than the long sleeves and cowl he was wearing. Practice was usually active
enough to keep him warm well into winter. Unlike Tishi-Wishi, he could handle
cold weather.
Thinking of Tishasanti and cold weather
reminded him of the time Tishasanti had lost his footing and slid all the way
down a hill and into a cluster of shrubs the previous winter. Penli snickered
at the memory.
“What’s so funny, Penlington? Other than
your terrible aim.”
Penli stopped and turned and sneered at
Tishasanti. From their first day of school, he’d hated Tishasanti. He was
loud-mouthed, bossy, and thought himself better than everyone else. He also
liked to solve problems with his fists and, when that didn’t work, tattled to
his daddy.
After Penli had gotten revenge on him
for a sucker punch by breaking Tishasanti’s nose, they’d been mortal enemies.
Well, they’d already been well on the way to that, because Tishasanti thought
he was the best at everything—including archery, which was Penli’s specialty.
No way was Tishi-Wishi better than him. He didn’t care if they did draw even
almost every single time. That was dumb luck for Tishasanti.
“Go away, Tishi-Wishi.”
Face going red at the hated nickname,
Tishasanti spat, “If that bastard Kure hadn’t stopped us, I would have had you,
and we both know it.”
Penli sneered. “Please. You’ll never
have me in any manner of speaking. And you only beat me at anything when luck
is on your side.”
“Oh, I see. Still mad about the way I
trounced you in the ring this morning?”
Curling his hands into his fists at his
side, Penli hissed, “You cheated!”
“All’s fair in war, Penlington. If you
hadn’t been so busy fretting about your stupid hair, maybe you’d have seen that
move coming. Who needs luck to beat you when all they have to do is get mud all
over your hair or clothes? You fuss more than a girl on her wedding day.”
“At least whoever I marry won’t want to
kill themselves rather than go through with the marriage,” Penli retorted—and
didn’t move in time as Tishasanti bellowed and slammed a fist into his jaw.
Penli stumbled back several steps and
wiped blood from his mouth. “Were you hoping I’d go down like you, Tishi?
Sorry, you’re the only one here with a glass jaw.” That time, he was ready for
the swing, and countered with a dodge promptly followed by a foot to
Tishasanti’s stomach.
After that, the fighting got ugly, and
stopped only when some professors showed up and dragged them apart.
“Sir—”
“Be quiet,” Kure snapped, and Penli
withered. Of all the professors on campus, his archery instructor was by far
his favorite—even if he could be infuriatingly stubborn and unreasonable about
some things. Like putting up with Tishasanti.
He remained quiet as they were dragged
into the headmaster’s office. Next to him, Tishasanti was equally silent, which
was odd. Usually by now he was screaming about what his father would have to
say about this.
“What a surprise to see you two again,”
Headmaster Worth replied, leaning back in his seat, making it creak with the
weight of muscle and fat wedged into it. In his tournament days, before they’d
faded out of popularity, Worth had been called “The Wall” and he hadn’t turned
into a ruin with age. “Two violent peas in a pod.”
Penli and Tishasanti bristled. “I am
nothing—”
“We have nothing—”
They both cut off as Kure cuffed them.
Worth stared implacably for several
long, miserable minutes. “You’re both too intelligent to simply throw you out
for the vagaries of youth. However, these violent outbursts cannot continue.
You are peers of your respective realms and you must learn to act like it.”
When Tishasanti started to speak, Worth cut him off with a sharp gesture.
“Spare me mentions of your father; I’ve conversed with him at length and he has
left the matter of your discipline wholly in my hands. The question is: what
sort of discipline will finally get through those stubborn heads of yours?”
Penli started to reply that removing
Tishasanti’s head would fix everything, looked at Worth’s face, and thought
better of it. Even if he was right that Tishasanti was the problem. Why did
they insist on acting like he was just as responsible? Tishasanti was the one
who always started it.
The look on Worth’s face then said he
had read every last one of Penli’s thoughts and was vastly disappointed by
them. How the bastard did that, Penli didn’t know.
Worth lifted his eyes to exchange some
silent conversation with Kure.
“With me,” Kure snapped, and dragged
Penli out of the room. The heavy door closed on the sound of Worth giving
Tishasanti a dressing down unlike any they’d received before.
Penli snickered.
“And what, you think you’re not in
trouble?” Kure demanded, dragging him down the hall and all but throwing him
into an empty study room. After slamming the door shut, he folded his arms
across his chest.
Penli scowled at the tear in a seam of
his shirt—a beautiful, fitted thing meant especially for archery, dark violet
lawn and embroidered all over with white and gold flowers. “You didn’t have to
ruin my shirt.”
“The blood covering half of it already
took care of that,” Kure replied, voice going even colder. “I think you have
more important things to worry about than your clothes, Penlington.”
“He started it!” Penli snapped. “I was
minding my own business, and he showed up—”
“Just because he taunts you doesn’t mean
you have to give in.” Kure held up a hand. “But let’s start with before that.
Why do you think I halted practice early?”
Penli shrugged and looked at the floor,
fighting an urge to cross his arms. Kure looked intimidating when he did it;
Penli would only look weak. “I figured you were annoyed.”
“Yes. About what?”
“I don’t know. I was hitting all the
marks. I was one point ahead—”
“That. That right there. The points are
not a contest. They aren’t there so you and Tishasanti can feud. Neither are
the duels, or the tests, or anything else. Those are meant to test your
personal acumen. Do you understand what it is you’re learning to do when you
hit those marks?”
Penli looked at him with all the growing
irritation overtaking him. “Hitting marks?”
Kure boxed his ears and, ignoring
Penli’s yowling, said, “You are learning to kill. Every mark is, if you’re
lucky, a dead animal brought down to feed your fellow soldiers. If you’re not
lucky, your arrow will land in someone’s eye, or chest, or somewhere that will
slow them long enough you can then take a killing shot. And instead of
appreciating that, you and Tishasanti are so busy proving who is better that
you’re not learning what you should be. What, pray tell, are you trying to be
better than him at?”
“Everything.”
“Funny, he’s probably giving that same
answer to the headmaster as we speak. Why do you want to be better than him?”
“Because I am! Because he picks on
people for no reason, he hurts them and laughs as he walks off like none of
them matter. And then he gets away with it because of teachers like you, who
don’t care what he does!”
Kure sighed and motioned for him to sit,
then took a nearby seat. “Penlington—”
“It’s Penli,” Penli muttered.
“Penli, then,” Kure said. “I know you
hate him, and perhaps you have good reason. But you need to get through that
stubborn head of yours that the biggest reason the two of you clash is that
you’re a lot alike.”
“We are—”
“Be quiet,” Kure cut in calmly. “You
don’t talk until I say you may. Now, then. You are both exceptionally smart.
You are both highly capable in all manner of martial skills. You both tend to
be aggressive when you are riled, which is not something to be proud of. If you
had grown up just a little bit different, Penli, you would behave exactly like
him. It’s by the grace of the gods and your parents that you don’t. But you do
seem to have appointed yourself judge, jury, and executioner when it comes to
Tishasanti, and that’s just as bad. You see one small portion of Tishasanti’s
life and what goes on it. Perhaps he deserves to be punished, but who are you
to decide and act on that? What do you think people think of you, always seeing
the two of you fight?”
Penli shook his head, a knot forming in
his stomach.
“They think you’re pretty, and nice at
times, but mostly scary, because you’re always fighting. Because sometimes from
where they’re standing, and the limited knowledge they possess, you look like
the one in the wrong. Remember that Penli: you don’t always know the whole
story, and who is the hero and who the villain is entirely relative. Leave the
judging to those who have seen the whole picture.”
“Yes, Professor,” Penli said. Did people
really think he was scary?
“Penli,” Kure said more gently, and when
he finally looked up continued, “If you really want to be a better person than
Tishasanti, then remember that only cowards resort to violence first. Only the
cruel-hearted find humor in another’s pain. And the most dangerous person in
the room is the one who thinks they know everything. Ignore Tishasanti as best
you’re able. Focus on your lessons, and ‘besting’ him fairly. No more fights in
the halls, or one day you’ll find that it gets easier and easier to use
violence to put people in the place you think they belong. Violence should
always be a last resort. Arrogance should never make your decisions.”
“Yes, Professor,” Penli repeated. “I-I’m
not really scary, am I? Just because I fight with Tishasanti?”
“You’re intimidating to many because, in
addition to fighting with him, you are fiercely competitive, lose your temper
quite easily, and there are rumors you’re going to be snatched up by the army
because of your archery skills.”
Penli had been preening about that all
month: that he was good enough to become a royal archer, go on secret missions
to defend the people, and save the kingdom. But with Kure’s words still filling
his head, all he felt was sick and scared. He wanted to be a hero, not an evil
bastard like Tishasanti. “I-I’m sorry. I really do just hate the way he treats
people.”
“I know,” Kure said gruffly. “But trust
that people with more experience will deal with him as best we’re able, and
there are bits of the story you will likely never learn. I know it’s hard, and
often feels unfair, but all you can do is keep moving forward doing your best.
Stop giving in to your worst. All right?”
“Yes, Professor.”
“Good.” He stood and Penli did the same.
“Now let’s get you back to your room so you can dress for dinner, and we’ll
discuss your punishment along the way.”
Penli groaned, but fell into step
alongside him as they headed across campus.
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